27 Sep 2009

Gue ga mellow, gue Cuma sebel ama lo


9 tahun yang lalu, gue masih bisa berteriak dengan keras
Sangat keras..

9 tahun yang lalu, gue masih bisa melihat dengan jelas
Sangat jelas..

9 tahun yang lalu, gue masih bisa bicara dengan lantang
Sangat lantang..

9 tahun yang lalu gue masih hidup
Sangat hidup..

Sekarang gue udah mati
Sangat mati..

Ga ada yang harus gue teriakin
Ga ada yang harus gue liatin
Ga ada yang harus gue bicarain

Dengan sangat keras, jelas dan lantang..

Sekarang gue tau rasanya mati

Sekarang gue tau kenapa Tuhan menciptakan kesedihan dibalik kesempatan yang ga selalu harus gue dapetin

Mungkin Tuhan punya rencana, atau malah engga sama sekali

Yang gue tau adalah, sekarang gue harus berteriak, melihat dan berbicara dengan sangat keras, jelas dan lantang

dalam hati.

semua pernah ada..
sampai akhirnya gue sadar kalo semua udah ga ada lagi.


Jakarta juni 2000
JB Handoyo
Gue ga mellow, gue Cuma sebel ama lo

24 Sep 2009

HAVE U ?


Have ever feel like an idiot?

Have u ever feel like A LOSER ? (in capital)

Have u ever feel like the most unluckiest person in this God Damn Earth?

Have u ever feel like Dead but alive ?

Have u ever Sad like u never had that feelings before ?

Have u ever feel like everybody in this lovely earth leave u with no reason ?

Have u ever feel like u better live alone in this planet instead of sharing with anyone ?

Have u ever ever.. and ever.. and ever..and ever again..

Share ur smile with someone who u love ?

Sad with someone who care of u ?

Share ur feelings with someone who want to listen to ?

Laugh with the person who u want to be with ?

Kiss the right person who truly want to kiss u back ?

Gave a heart to the person who really want ur genuine heart ?

Care of someone who meaningful to you ? (not vice versa)


My Answer


NO I HAVEN'T ! I DON'T HAVE THAT KIND OF FEELINGS !

AM A FRIGIT ! I DON'T HAVE A HEART ! I NEVER PUT SOMEONE ELSE FEELINGS AS MY CONSIDERATION OF MY ACTIONS ! AM A COLD BLOOD ! AM DEAD !

I will never and ever believe in love at the first sight !

I do believe in UNCONDITIONAL LOVE !

DARE U ????

I don't think so..

think twice, its not good for ur health...

because it could kill u.. anytime.. anywhere.. no matter ur ready or not !

its a sudden..

but its GENUINE.. it just the way it is, was and suppose to be..

it hurt... very...


end of September 2009

My name is Joey.. and i lost part of my soul..
Happy ?

6 Sep 2009

Dana Sawu Island NTT

Dana Sawu Island
The Island of Raijua's God

20 Hours Sailing from Kupang NTT


Seba Port Sawu Island
Find your own ship to Dana Sawu Island after arriving.
ASDP Indonesia Ferry - Kupang / Bolok Port to Sawu island / Seba Port 15 Hours - 18 Hours Sailing with this limited facilities ship !

humans, animals (pigs,goat,chicken etc) motorbike, cars, material, in one ship ! am not complaining.. feel sad seeing the reality of our sea transportation services